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Monday, July 13, 2015

The best 5 months...and the last 5 months


Shortly after falling completely in love with Uganda the middle of my last year there, I began getting thoughts of sticking around. December was approaching way faster than I had anticipated and I knew I was not ready to say any final goodbyes to this beautiful country, my new home. I guess I wanted to get back the time that I had lost in the beginning of my service when I was going through culture shock and wanted to leave so badly. I was proud of myself for reaching a place of contentment and joy, after being in such a place of anxiety and confusion.  So in September I began talking to a few people in the office about the idea of me extending for a few months. It just made so much sense. I would not get into a classroom in the United States until September, so what was I going to do for 7 months? Why not use them productively and happily in Uganda. And that is what we planned out. My ticket to staying was going to be working with a team to design a series of regional youth trainings to take place for Volunteers, adults, and youth in their communities across the entire country. I was going to be able to take my experience with PYE and actually use it. Empowerment! After coming up with some final details, it felt so perfect and too good to be true; but it wasn’t!
It was decided that I would move to Kampala, that capital, and work from the Peace Corps office. I would be working directly with Phylicia, a stellar human being with whom I share so much in common in regards to philosophy, work ethic, and commitment to service. Our brains and hearts were instantly linked on this project from the start. It was going to be great. We teamed up with some other fabulous and creative Volunteers and began to dream our biggest dreams for Youth Empowerment in Uganda. The coolest part was that the ideas we were coming up with constantly changed and evolved. The more people we spoke with the better it got. But we all stuck to our core values and mission of making this project truly sustainable, by having it be Ugandan driven.  Our key partners, creators, designers, and implementers were Ugandan men and women who do this work for a living. We were really just there to create a space and link networks together. I think what made this project so successful was its integrity: it was about empowerment and everyone who participated was being empowered at every stage of its development. I had so much fun meeting dozens of influential and truly inspiring people from around the country, trading ideas. I was also spending all my time in the city and really getting back into a solid working vibe and fun after work routines. I loved life.
It is really hard to capture everything that went into this project. The hours, the weekends that were spent hole punching and collating, the ridiculous laughing at nothing, and the tears from how excited we were.  I gained such a newfound respect for the team of people in the Peace Corps office; they work so hard every day and care so much about Volunteers, but barely get noticed. I also gained a ton of great skills in project and training management. By the time our most crucial element arrived, the Training of Trainers, we were on Cloud 9. It was here that we realized for the first time what we had created. We brought together nearly 70 experts in various fields who would lead 90% of the training material and exercises in our four regional trainings. And in one week, we taught them about youth empowerment models, how to facilitate a session with activities and not lectures or presentations, and how to create a space where youth can feel heard and have fun at the same time. And they killed it! In that week there was more growth than I have ever seen from a group of participants in that amount of time. We truly had the right people. This was going to be epic.
It was a whirlwind of work and meetings and phone calls to put out fires until the four back-to-back trainings were on us. But eventually they came and we went into autopilot. Our work in training and planning was mostly over. Now we had to give up a good amount of control and let things happen, let our newly trained facilitators feel empowered and make the impact they so desperately wanted to make for their country. It was the most beautiful and inspiring series of events I have ever been a part of. I could probably write a novel just on all the experiences and events that happened at each training, but to sum it up I can just say we accomplished our goal of empowering people in a sustainable way at every level. Youth came out of their shells, teachers denounced corporal punishment and stigma of HIV, facilitators opened up to new ideas, and some of our youngest facilitators went from being shy, barely audible speakers to leaders in their own sessions that could truly deliver activities and information that left everyone informed and excited. The traveling circus of around 30 core facilitators that went to every training (close to 30 days straight) became something so strong and so liberated, we became a family. “Right here, right now, we found our community,” was truly our anthem. I learned so much in those last few months of my service and they forever left an impression with me about development, Uganda, and humanity. No matter what the circumstances, the environment, the resources, level of knowledge, or assumptions of you that other people will make, when someone is passionate about something they are unstoppable. And when enough passionate people get together, change can and does happen. I don’t know how much of an impact I made during my service in Uganda. But during this last project I am completely confidant that I was part of something truly magical and truly influential. The key was that I was not trying to do anything on my own, to be a champion or a hero. I was working alongside people who were much smarter and more creative than me, with just as much love and passion, and together we were able to make a difference.
Having to leave Uganda was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Those last few days were like a daze to me. I recalled what I was like when I was saying goodbye to my US home on my way to Uganda, crying non-stop and just feeling like I only half existed. The fact that I was having those same feelings for a country I did not grow up in really touched my heart and I can truly say I am very proud of myself for it. I have a family and a home in Uganda and I know for certain that I will be back at some point. I love you Uganda, I love you Peace Corps. Thank you for everything you have taught and given me. I went into this journey a kid, hoping to change the world and maybe learn a few things along the way. I came out an adult, knowing myself a little better, having learned more than I could possible have imagined about the world, and completely changed for good. I am now, finally, ready for my life. I am now ready to move into the next stage, take what I learned, apply it, and make a difference in my new community. Maybe I should rename my blog now that it is over. “The Adventure of a Lifetime;” it certainly was an adventure, but now it seems like my lifetime is THE adventure. And I am just getting started living it!

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